Yet another thought

Sunday 10.39 pm

I am sure that when you are alone there will be so many random thoughts went across your mind. Thoughts about your life, those around you, the past, the choices that you'd made, the happiness that you'd received and the sadness that filled you...

I cannot really remember why I'd thought about her. Something triggered but I was unable to recall.

And I got to know that she'd left this world today.

You know..you might lost contact with the person or had never seen the person for years but somehow.. you always have the lingering feeling of connection.

This day had made me learned something about myself...

Almost at the end of the year

Thursday 11.06 pm

Most of us were pretty 'relaxed' at work during the afternoon shift since it was the eve of X'mas as there were massive discharged of patients in the morning. The morning shifts discharged 10 patients, whereas I discharged 1 patient and another patient was transferred out to her parent ward.

I'm gonna be in the afternoon shifts for the next 2 days. Woohoo! I think it is seriously rare for me to have 3 consecutive afternoon shifts. But I will be working for the next 7 days though. Now, that's a bummer.

Anyway another 7 more days to a brand new year. Ain't planning to do some new year resolution cos I'd never follow through it. It is just a pain in the ass.

On another note, I've been craving for Tom Yam seafood. Thanks to Kak Normah suggestions, I just bought the Tom Yam Paste over at Shop & Save.

I bought lemon grass, Kaffir Lime leaves, prawns, fish fillets, young baby corns, straw mushrooms and lime juice. And at home I just added a little bit more of tamarind and lime juice to have the more of the sour taste.

Simply heaven. I did take Losec beforehand in case my stomach gets irritated by all the spices.

Otherwise, my life is nothing but of mundane activities.

Sometimes, I whined about it...and sometimes I liked the way things are.

Thoughts...

Wednesday 12.01 am

Reflecting back of the year 2009 are filled with melancholy memories. Early part of the year was heartbreaking. Mid year: depression and deterioration of health (evident by mood swings). Year end: decision making and trying to embrace what life is.

The truth is, I feel that I am living my life of what people expected me to do and not what I wanted to do. Sad but true. Having an autonomy in my life is something I am having difficulty in grasping.

I love my family. No doubt about that. But there were times when I felt that I had a rein on me. The responsibilities of being the eldest in the family. The need to gratify my parents and all these overshadows on what I WANT in my life.

It sucked.

And it bores me.

Life as it is now..

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Sunday 11.29 pm

I think time flies very fast if you are enjoying yourself. I'd finally bought the Nintendo wii. As usual, I sucked at all those shooting or fighting kind of games. Fortunately, I bought the Dance Dance Revolution set. So it gave me something to play about. I do well only at the Beginner stage, but a klutz at the basic stage. I have very poor coordination. But I like playing it, feels like a mini exercise. My next aim is to buy the balanced board to go with the fitness disc that I'd bought. Probably will be buying after my morning shift on a Tuesday.

By the way, did I mention that I loved watching Avatar on Friday night? Well, it is our first time watching a 3D movie. It was cool. Even though the movie storyline is rather predictable but I enjoyed watching it nevertheless. I even cried at all those sad parts. So I strongly suggest you to watch this movie.

I will rate it as an EXCELLENT movie.

An avatarcular night!(UPDATE)

Saturday 7.09 am

On the last night, like almost everyone else, I was very thankful on having the year end Bonus. When I got home, gave $$$$ to my Mum. I think she looked very pleased. Anyway, I fell asleep thereafter and forced to wake myself up at 11 + plus am cos I needed to get the ticket to watch AVATAR (3D). After buying the movie tickets, met my sis to have our hair done. As usual, it will take for about 4 hours. Soon after, met my brothers, had our dinner at Swensen's. The apple crumble with Ice cream was an absolute heaven. Bought some stuffs. Have not really buy anything for myself but I've been wanting to buy Nintendo wii for quite some time. So I guess, I'll be buying it later today.

The bad hair days..

Wednesday 4.09 pm

I can't seem to stand the sight of my hair nowadays. The ones on top of my head, not the other parts yah. It was not to my liking even after I blow dry my hair, used straightening balm and straightened it with a flat iron. Guess I will do the rebonding stuffs on Friday which will fall on my sleeping day.

THE ROSE

THE ROSE

(THIS POEM IS WRITTEN SOLELY BY ME SUMINI ROHANI, IF YOU WANNA USE IT, PLEASE GIVE ME CREDIT FOR IT. THANKS.)

KNOWN TO BE A SYMBOL OF LOVE
BEAUTIFUL ROSES THAT COULD CAPTURE A WOMAN'S HEART
FILLING THE EMPTINESS WITH HOPE, LOVE AND WARMTH
THAT IS WHERE ALL THE LOVING GAMES WILL START

IT USED TO BE A BEAUTY IN MY EYES
NOW UGLINESS IT SEEMS TO ME
THE SWEET SCENT STARTED TO FADE AWAY
EVERYTHING, STARTED TO DIE WITHIN ME

PROTRUDED THORNS STUCK OUT PROMINENTLY
PRICKING MY FINGERS AS I WATCH IT BLEED
WARM BLOOD SNAKED THROUGH THE THORNY PATHS
IT FLOWS AND FLOWS UNTIL IT FINALLY REACHED THE TIP

ROSES GIVEN TO ME BY THE MAN I LOVE
PROMISES MADE UP OF LOVE AND TRUST HE ASSURED ME
OH GOD! HOW NAIVE I WAS!
NEVER DID I IMAGINED HE WOULD DESERT ME!

THIS IS HOW MY STORY OF LOVE GOES
ALL THE TEARS HAD ALREADY RUN DRY
I HOPED THAT TIME COULD HEAL THE WOUNDS
TELLING MYSELF, I WILL SURVIVE

LIKE HOW I ALWAYS DO....
TIME AND TIME AGAIN....

Haha, I added those 2 sentences. I guess I wrote these when I was about 13 or 14 years old. I can't really recall which ex-boyfriends of mine had hurt me at that time. Sadly enough, I'd experienced this unfortunate turmoil one after another.

I'd always thought at that time, 'he' was the one. But after seeing their souls, I understood why it was not meant to be.

Guess God had his reasons.